Ugh i failed myself again tonight. I purged. I couldntt take it anymore!! After my last post i preceded to do 250 crunches and 50 leg extensions. Then i lost control, downed two cups of water until i was gagging. And then.. I purged :(. I don't often. I limit myself to restricting. I hate purging its so gross and Im all snotty and teary eyed. Idk. Well i purged until Im pretty sure all of the chocolate was out of my tummy. Im still super paranoid like i still feel so full. Ugh :( i want to cry. What a terrible day. Tomorrow Im doing a liquid fast. For sure. Its my punishment. I feel like ill never get any closer to my goal. Im in such a rut. Gah. I need to look at fat girl thinspo. It should help me!! Feel free to message or comment. I could use any advice. No rude comments though please..
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