Im really not feeling high in spirits lately. Even with the holidays looming over my head. Christmas shopping just leads me to clothes.. And that just reminds me of how fat i am. All i ever wear is sweats because i am too fat to pull off cute skinny people clothes. I don't want to draw any attention to the monstrosity that is my body. Today i did really well. I looked at plenty of thinspo this morning to get me through the day. I wasn't even tempted really. the thought of food made me sick, i shouldn't be eating! Plus, at dinner time, which is usually the time of day i break down and eat- the family got beef tacos from taco bell. I am a vegetarian. Lol, so that was easy. Thanks for being so inconsiderate family! Im feeling really stressed out at the moment. Life crap. Like i know i need to start college again next semester. But my anxiety is killing me. I need to start back at work but the thought makes me want to throw up! I can slowly feel myself starting to slip into depression again. I know part of it is me missing my pawpaw who died last year right before Christmas of cancer.. I miss him so much and its going to be hard spending another Christmas without hIm. On another note, i really need to start drinking more water. All day i drank crystal lite. Which is better than coke, of course. But straight up water would be better!! I guess i need more flavor in my life ;p. Till next time, crissy shadows <3
I know how you feel, my college is killing me too! LOL Anyway I think you should concentrate on drinking water instead of everything else, 2 liters a day is fine ;)
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