Today im feeling kinda depressed. It is so hard to not eat when i am spending all day with the family. For lunch i went out with my mom and ordered vegetarian tacos. All i did was pick some vegetables out of the tortillas. Even that little bit of food and picking at the chips and salsa made me feel gross. :( that was about 190 cals. Then for dinner i went with my bfs fam to my favorite veggie burger joint. I ate some delicious fried veggies and a couple bites of a black bean burger. (that was about two hours ago). And i have this horrible full feeling. Plus my stomach is hurting so bad and idk why! I try never to purge and its times like these i really want to. I don't even care that i already absorbed the cals i just want this full feeling to go away! I did crunches today and that was it is:(. Ughh . No time for the gym. But i do have plans with my friend to go to the gym at eight am tomorrow. I have work at ten.. And eight is pretty early for me but idc i need to burn off all of this fat! After the burger place i went to whole foods. I love that place its perfect for me! Everything is either vegan or organic xD. The problem was though that all of the young women shopping there were like super tall and skinny. I felt like a dumpy little hobo. Please god help me lose this weight! Oh and my friend who i am going to work out with tomorrow is my height 5'5 and like 100 pounds give or take. And gorgeous. So hopefully that will be motivation for me to work extra hard :). ND THANKYOU for any comments i get they are so much appreciated. Or even if you are reading this. Nobody in my life understands how i feel so i really needed to get this out. Stay strong!! Love ms. Shadows. Now some thinspiration for weak people like me :(
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